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Adderall: Month One
Last month I had to go to my doctors for a checkup to see how my medications were doing. A year ago, I was put on Zoloft for sciatica in my hips and legs and also for anxiety. Well, at least that’s what my doctor told me. I mentioned how I was always tired and fought to stay motivated and do anything other than lay in bed and scroll through Pinterest and play Candy Crush on my phone.
Then he suggested I try Adderall. I don’t have ADHD and have never been diagnosed with it. My younger brother has it and my husband has it as well so I know what it’s like. When my husband is on the computer, he’s not JUST on the computer. He has a game playing, one or two Youtube videos, and his Steam account up for games and chatting.
My brain doesn’t think like that. I can only focus on one thing at a time. If I had that much on the computer screen, I wouldn’t be able to enjoy any of it. So I was a little concerned when I was asked to try this new medicine.
I went and read everything I could find on drugs.com and everydayhealth.com. PAGES and pages of reviews going all the way back to 2005.
2005, ya’ll. I was serious about learning everything I could for the Adderall so I would know what to experience.
First off, I’ve been on Zoloft, which is an SSRI for over a year. It turns out, I DID have Generalized Social Anxiety and Agoraphobia, which is a fear of leaving a place or room due to anxiety. Well, that’s the layman’s terms for it anyway. When I’m on the Zoloft, it’s a relaxative so my muscles don’t hurt. I’ve been told and read a few articles that mentioned that it’s been used for fibromyalgia as well which is what we first thought I had.
When I first took it, it was the first medication that I took that wasn’t a Flintstone Gummie Vitamin and I was a little afraid to see how I would react.
Well, the first 4 or 5 months, I was a firecracker. I was crazy happy and active. I found a term that one user described as the Medicine Honeymoon High. Especially since it was the first time I’ve ever taken a medicine before.
I noticed that I couldn’t cry. Little things didn’t upset me anymore which I didn’t mind, but the big stuff, like our bank account getting hacked…well, I didn’t care either. I felt like a zombie so I asked my doctor to go off of it. He did and we tried other meds to combat the pain and anxiety, like Wellbutrin and Cymbalta to name a few.
They were AWFUL.
Wellbutrin made me paranoid and looking over my shoulder at everything. Cymbalta made me crazy. I was mad at everything all the time and literally thought I was going crazy. It was a terrifying experience going through vertigo and I passed out TWICE at work while I was on it. I was dizzy all the time and threw up constantly. One of the worst things I’d ever experienced and I was only on it for three days. None of them helped with the pain.
I tried to go without any medication for awhile, but that turned out to be harder than I would like. I had to quit work which did NOT help our income and I basically laid in bed all day, watching Netflix. There was too much pain to do anything, even making the bed or doing a load of laundry. I felt useless and unworthy to be a wife to my husband or even a friend to others.
This caused my depression to become worse. I never really thought I had depression or anything like that before, but after being put on these meds, I MUST have it, if they reacted that way, right?
One thing that I read the most for Adderall, was how it’s a favorite for students to become addicted too. You’ll get one dose and keep wanting more of a higher dosage to get the same “high” that you got the first time around. That can lead to substance abuse and other not so good things since there’s a maximum dose that you can have.
Not exactly things I wanted to hear, or read in this case. Every review or article I checked out, mentioned how you shouldn’t take it if you didn’t have ADHD or ADD since it can make you energetic. For someone who has ADHD or ADD, it slows down their brain and for those who don’t have it, it causes the opposite which can lead to addiction.
I was pretty scared to try the Adderall but promised I would update every month with my results. So, for now, I’m on the 30mg generic of Adderall and I take it at 10:00 in the morning. I take 50mg of Zoloft at 7 or 8 at night depending on my work schedule and when I need to go to sleep. As usual, I experienced the “high” on my first day when I took it and was able to focus on work without being grumpy. But not after that.
Adderall doesn’t actually give you more energy, but it does help you focus on your job or things you need to do.
The one thing I noticed is that being back on the Zoloft, I haven’t experienced the same high as before. I’m not super active or talking too much. Instead, I’m less worried about small, mundane things and more able to get things done.
I’ll keep updating the progress since I’m curious to see how it’ll go after I’ve taken it for awhile. Have any of you tried Adderall before? What was your experience? Let me know in the comments below!
What to see where it all began? Check out the first post for realizing I was sick and needing medication here.